listen...

You need time for yourself to mature and figure out what you really want in life. Young people often are intrigued with the idea of being married and raising a family, but feel cheated later on that they had no time to themselves.

horoscope...

"What are you trying to achieve here, exactly? Once you answer that question, you can figure out the best means to get it. Don't waste your time pussyfooting around and trying to make everyone happy. Figure out what you want."
[pussyfooting: to act or proceed cautiously or timidly to avoid committing oneself, especially in making decisions.]



It would tell me something like that, at this exact moment in my life -_____-
such a coincidence.

caught up...

in a storm...

of mind boggling emotions and frustrations.
I want to figure things out on my own...

week before finals...

and i just had to get sick...

randoms:
I have one more essay to conquer. I can do it...
I'm in class and my tummy hurts.
I really want to go snowboarding.
I want to see snow in New York.
wish i could be a performer.

where has my mind been...

I am lost for words as to how I feel...

all I know is a part of me feels locked up in a tower :\

i question...

What happened to love?
Where did its importance go?
Where's the meaning?

Lately I've had a lot on my mind and i feel like I'm having trouble expressing how i feel. I feel troubled and lost in a sense that I'm losing the idea of who i am. Last night I had a dream, and for some reason I felt as if this dream was trying to tell me something. Was it trying to guide me towards a sense of direction. or was it giving me answers to questions I've been forming in my head, or could it just simply be meaningless?. change and time. change and time.

am i happy or am i trying too hard to be happy.
i need someone to talk to, but i don't at the same time.
this is surely an issue with myself...

mon Dieu!

O___o

Sometimes its good to stop searching, just for a moment, and appreciate all that is around you that you are already thankful for.

epiphany

i know what I want to do.
now it's just a matter of doing it -___-

Dear God,
Please give me the strength and perseverance.
and thank you for my loving family and wonderful boyfriend.
AMEN.

me-time

it's the beginning of the school year again. and i'm trying to be ahead of the game.
I gotta break this lazy habit i've been living by.
I need to work on becoming a better me, because lately i've been hating myself.
all i do is complain and never change... well because i hate change.
I have so many thoughts and questions in my head, but I don't think I'll be able to get them answered.
i just want to do something for me.
but i can't do it if i am where i stand right now.

stressful september awaits.

i find it hard...

to feel secure.
to feel wanted.
to feel needed.
to feel beautiful.
to feel special.
to feel different.

This world forms so many thoughts and emotions to the human mind. I cannot understand or explain how important emotions conflict with thought processes. I honestly feel like I'm drowning sometimes and I can't seem to explain why this is the way things are. I don't feel amazing, and as much as people think i should be happy with life, in the end... no one is ever completely happy including me. No matter how many people there are in my life who are willing to help, no one can ever understand why I feel the way I do. Everyone has their own struggles, what's important is how you deal with them.

I'm hoping for change...
wishing...
wondering...
hoping...
PRAYING.

a little bit of Bob Marley...

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

i find horoscopes...

very interesting. while not being able to sleep I had decided to read up on my horoscopes then stumbling upon the section of 'Scorpio Love Yearly'. It's very intriguing to see how well horoscopes seem to explain how a person is or at least how of a coincidence it may be... for example this portion of the article I was reading about my love life for the year of 2010:

"When it comes to actual total love in your life, 2010 will be better than what you've seen the last few years. You've probably learned a lot about how you fit into other people's lives, and you'll be able to judge your relationships more wisely as a result. If you're in a committed relationship now, April and May will prove to be excellent..."

It amazes me how it seems to be 100% correct. This year has been one of the best years of my life. As for the april/may part, makes me smile because april marked the "one year anniversary" with the most amazing boyfriend ever. Along with all the other info about learning how to fit into other people's lives and judging your relationships more wisely... well I believe through all that I've been through, I've learn to take things one step at a time. The number one thing I tell people is "Communication is important". It what keeps the relationship healthy and loving.

sweet...

“ You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before, she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

— Bob Marley

uneasiness

makes my stomach churn.
I have the sudden feeling of nervousness. I need the strength to believe that there is something greater than all this. That I'll become better than who i am now. I want to be great some day, but sometimes the drive or motivation is what I lack. I don't think I'll ever feel good enough, i don't think anyone ever will. Sometimes the little things just don't cut it anymore. Striving for greater is what seems to be an ongoing goal. I wish I could just be happy with myself, but this feeling comes and goes until something is accomplished again.

Life doesn't suck, I do.

I hate feeling insecure with everything.
even until today...

Thank you God...

For giving me the life I am living. Even through all the tough times, I just gotta remember there's more to live for than just today, because we have an option for having a tomorrow. Sometimes I can't believe how blessed I am.

God is good.

UGHH!

i hate my aunt for being a terrible daughter to my grandma. for what you've done before yes i may understand, but when it gets to a point that grandma ends up wasting precious tears on you is when someone should get the balls to tell you that you're a horrible and ugly person inside and out. One day I am going to say this to your face, when you learn to stop ignoring and dodging my family's messages and phone calls. the world doesn't revolve around you, and i hope one day that when you're old and frail no one will wipe your ass!

times are changing

and i seem to be growing up each day. through age, wisdom, etc.
i'm happy but of course i know hardships will always come and go. just gotta learn how to deal with it and move on.

Dear God,
Thank you for my life. At this very moment and point in my life, I am unbelievably thankful for all that you've given me.

Love, Kayla

nightmares.

scare me.
heart pounding.
nerve-wracking.
heavy breathing.
just waking up in pure sadness.
sometimes i hate being alone.

so as I...

lazily lounge on my bed, waiting for the day to pass, with my Pandora playlist on blast, I wonder what's in store for me in the future. I want to be good at something one day.
_I want a Professional Career with a degree in Child Development, while being able to express my passion for fashion on the side.
_This splash of realization and belief in myself needs to grow.
_As time passes, I begin to fade in the eyes of others. I lost friends of the past and it really sucks because sometimes I'm in need of an unbiased opinion other than my own.
_I find that I talk to myself a lot about how I feel.
_Sometimes words cannot describe my feelings.
EFF...

i want to be...

the girl who can do anything she sets her mind to do.
the girl someone needs.
the girl who's strong and responsible.
the girl someone loves.
the girl you can't live without.
the girl who others look up to.
the girl who works hard.
the girl who dresses cute.
the girl with the long beautiful hair.
the girl who goes on adventures.
the girl with good friends.
the girl who isn't afraid.
the girl with confidence and willpower.
the girl who is smart.
the girl who is wanted.
the girl who is accepted.
the girl who can cook.
the girl who loves herself.
the girl who loves others.
the girl that everyone admires.
the girl someone can count on.
the girl with the beautiful smile.
the girl who can sing.
the girl who doesn't worry.
the girl who is successful.
the girl someone wants to be with.
and so on....

where is she? how come i can't be her?

I can't breathe let alone think.
Sometimes I'm unhappy with who I am.

it's weird...

...to want something so badly then after you get it i end up changing my mind. In this case if you were wondering it is about my Major. After having taken an Intro To Fashion course, I've came to the conclusion that it isn't something I want to do. I want a simple life, nothing hectic which would require my full time and effort. Having to travel and make a big name for myself while having to leave loved ones for long periods of time during the week. It's something that could affect my future in more ways than one. And from my understanding I'm not that good of a networking-type of person. I don't sit down to read magazines and remain in awe as new designers rise in the fashion industry. To be honest I barely even know of any designers besides the already prestigious name brands, lingering on the shelves of department stores/malls. It's surely not something I could see myself doing because my passion is no longer there. I can't sell at work so what would ever make me capable of selling later on in life.

So after much thought and consideration I've decided to switch my major, not for the sake of others but for the sake of myself. Wish me luck, because I am surely going to need it.

one year...

Friday: April 16, 2010:Lazy Friday =) woke up early to bring my mom's FJ Cruiser to the Toyota Buena Park dealership. Then bf came to pick me up and head back to his house as we wait for the vehicle to be finished with its maintenance. He was lovely enough to cook me breakfast...After breakfast Tidus Myles got messy in the baby pool/mud so it was time to give him a bath. Poor puppy looked so sad when he was getting wet and soapy...
after bathtime, we cleaned up a bit picked up my car from the dealership. Grabbed something to eat from Wendy's and that afternoon headed over to my house. Mom came home from work and was craving sushi, so Mom, Lawrence, and I headed to Carson Buffet to eat dinner =)


Saturday: April 17, 2010:
When I woke up in the morning my eye was super red and disgusting looking so glasses were my only option that day. I got ready around 7am. When I got into my car around 8am to head over to Lawrence's house, I tried starting my car but my battery wouldn't let me. Because Tidus had his vet appointment I had to borrow my mom's car again. At 9:15 was Tidus' appointment. It went well as he got his last set of shots, but poor puppy has a minor umbilical hernia. no worries though because it's fixable.
Later that day we went back to Carson to introduce Tidus to his new playmate Luna =) At first she was very mad that he was in her area but soon enough they learned to play with each other. They'll both have to learn that they are going to be best friends forever in the end.That evening we went back to Buena Park and had dinner and watched She's Out of My League online <-- funny movie. Sunday, April 18, 2010: Woke up at 6am to get ready for church at 7:30am :) so happy bf came too! after a whole hour long + more mass we went back to the house and I decided it'd be better to cook than go out for breakfast. On the Menu was: heart-shaped pancakes, over-easy eggs, turkey bacon, italian sausage, strawberries, and oranges. it was Delicious, but made me full the whole day until dinner time. As we went back to Lawrence's house we made a stop at Zion Market to buy his family some marinated Kbbq Meat for their bbq later. When we got back to the house I wanted to play Wii Sports and Wii Fit.. it was intense and fun. After I was tired we took a break and watched Space Jam, but I fell asleep halfway through the movie. By then it was time to get ready for dinner. Blue was our matching color of the evening, and we sure looked good. Lawrence took me to Gyu Kaku and what was even more great was that our friend Lisa was our server/waitress for the night. She treated us well with the extra special treatment. The bill was soo cheap compared to what it was supposed to be, so Lawrence happily tipped her $30 because she deserved it :)

I LOVE LAWRENCE MALLARI

He's an amazing boyfriend, friend, son, brother, and overall person. He does so much for others rather than himself. He always takes care of me even for the simplest things. I can't get over how lucky I am.
Happy One Year Anniversary

oh how...

the weather lately has been crazy.
hot, hot, cold, hot, cold, cold... whatever the pattern may be, make up your mind already mother nature! for i fear that a great natural disaster is on it's way :(
from a recent article:
"April is Earthquake awareness month.. Why April? Not because the collective stress of tax day somehow translates into geologic stress, but because San Francisco's 1906 quake, the most destructive in California's history, happened in April. Also, according to a story in today's Los Angeles Times, Southern California is experiencing a surge of earthquake activity."

whether it may be minor earthquakes it's still a major issue to worry about. looking at recent earthquakes in LA, definitely scares me. In this case the only thing we can do is be aware and probably start building up an earthquake emergency kit. I surely don't want to have to deal with worrying but I'd rather be safe than sorry.

On a lighter note, this coming April 18th is my 1 year anniversary with my boyfriend. I could honestly say, this has been the best year of my life.

upon my discovery

according to yahoo horoscope:
You're feeling a little more sensitive about your relationship than you have been before, so check in with your honey and see if you can get more clarity than you had yesterday.

maybe i do, maybe i don't.
whatever this feeling may be... i hope it goes away soon.
it's making me sad.

note to self:

You've got to learn not to care so much or worry yourself.
Its not good for you or as a matter of fact, not good for other people as well.
Believe that you can be genuinely happy without doubts.
Love who are, but tame your emotions.
Communicate freely, but watch your words and actions.
Cherish what you have.
and hope that from now on things will be better.
no more then, just now.

aaarggh...

words cannot express the way i feel.

therefore i'm going to sleep it off...

i'm not sure if i'm feeling sad, mad, happy, indifferent, [insert emotion here].

but i know for a fact i've felt like this before.

adieu. au revoir. adios.

goodbye.

i get..

easily frustrated with myself.

I tend to feel not good enough or even that I don't deserve things in my life. Am I not working hard enough? let alone at all? I'm disappointed with my habits, the way I think, and the mere fact of just how I am as a person. I don't write these things to just complain and have you sympathize for me, but to possibly expel what it is inside that's bothering me because frankly I can't seem to figure it out myself out.

i've done a lot.

or what seems like a lot. but yet never enough.
what is it that I need to do?
not this feeling again...


I feel like I need to clear my head.
and maybe my heart while i'm at it.

as of late.

I've been doing some growing up. I'm trying to get over the little stuff and begin to focus on the bigger things in life. At this point in time I've already lost a lot but gained a lot at the same time. There are times when I feel alone and scared. I need to understand that it's not a bad thing to be, because that's when you grow the most.

"God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be."

Dear God: Remind me that I am beautiful, classy and strong, and that I have to love myself. Help me to live my life to the fullest. Please promote me and cause me to excel above my own expectations. Help me shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect me at all times, lift me up when I need you the most, and let me know that when I walk with you, I will always be safe. Strengthen me to overcome my most dreaded fears and doubts. That I may love with all my heart the people who I've encountered in this moment of my life.


I am so in love that it's sometimes scary. The only scary thing is the thought of losing him.
I love my family there's no doubt about that.
I am so excited to just LIVE.

if life ended now...

i will do anything to find you in the after life.

lately..

i've been feeling better :)
about a lot of things.
I tend to have my days.
but I'm beginning to take things one step at a time.
everything will be alright.
just as long as I allow them to be.

lost for words

I'm at this certain state in which, time is of the essence. I've realized yeah I'm still young but not young enough to not have to worry. Worry about life after college, looking for places to stay, a career to succeed in... The list goes on and on. I look at other people and I wonder "How did they make it to where they're at today?". I feel like, because out of my sisters I've been the only one who hasn't been able to experience the life away from my parents and that I am lacking in the ability to branch out and grow on my own. To EXPERIENCE the reality of life. I've learned how to cook, I've learned how to do my own laundry, I've learned how to keep a job for more than 1-2 years... all that sometimes makes me wonder how would it be if tomorrow I went up to my parents and said, "Mom, Dad... I'm moving out". I know for a fact that it's going to be hard and that there will be many obstacles but maybe I need that. I can't be sheltered like this. I want to work for the things I have because that's how it's going to be. Maybe I'm not ready or maybe I am, you never know until you let me try...

Oh how wondrous thoughts run through my head... I can't seem to tame them, because I thrive for more.

forgive me.

for I am...
too confusing to understand.
too hurt to be okay.
too broken to be fixed.
too crazy to be sane.
too insecure to be confident.
too afraid to feel safe.
absolutely confuzzled.

life can be scary

especially when you don't know.. what will come next..

Valentine's Day 2010

simplicity.
is what makes me happy the most.

Today the boyfriend and I decided we wanted to go to Outback Steakhouse for dinner. and so we went and waited for about 1hour 40min. so we decided we'll order to go.. and as we were at the take-out area. I was thinking "im just want L&L" and then that's when I let my thoughts out loud. and he agreed... that in itself made me happy. It doesn't matter what I do or where I eat, just as long as he's happy too. When we got home with the L&L, i was thinking.. man my mom is going to laugh at us because we waited for however long and just came home with fast food...
but as we reached the kitchen table and told her what happen she said... "aww it's ok, it doesn't matter because valentine's day is everyday"... she's right.
I loved him yesterday, i love him today, and i know for sure i will still love him tomorrow.
Happy Valentine's Day my love.

why do birds fly?

and why do some boys act the way they do? i always yearn for answers to questions that are hard to find. with that said i feel this way because of this...
i had a conversation with one of my friends early this morning, and he has been one of my good friends throughout the years. Yeah we don't hangout or we barely have conversations. but it's that kind of friendship that you can always just stop and continue on again when the time permits. before I rant on, i'm going to add a little background because honestly, i'm upset with his actions... he has been with his gf for a few yesrs already. and he loves her she loves him. BUT (because there always has to be a but) lately he's been putting himself in situations that he shouldn't be in. like hanging out with a girl that he himself admitted he has a crush on?!? first of all WHY ARE YOU CRUSHING ON GIRLS when you have a gf? and second of all why are you hanging out with the girl you have a crush on past midnight in classrooms talking about sex? then here you are telling me that you HAD to look away from the girl because you were oh so tempted!! if you want to be able to go out have fun, yet still be with your girl. don't talk the way you do to other girls. but if you don't want to change that... maybe you shouldn't be in the relationship you are in just yet. it's unfair for her.

and here i go...
I get mad at simple things my guy friends tell me when they clearly know i have a bf or i get upset to see what they do behind their gf's backs. They have absolutely amazing gfs that care about them and love them. i figure maybe they don't deserve them? maybe they're just not ready. or maybe they just need to realize.

I take things and analyze it. try to understand it. and when i can't... that's when i question.

astrology outcomes...

intrigues me like no other. however i do enjoy how it can totally relate...

Love&Relationship for 2010:
"Year 2010 Romantic
Regardless of whether you're in a relationship or not, Scorpio, you're certainly going to be getting a lot of potential romantic attention this year, and you'll be having a lot of fun with it. Expansive Jupiter starts the year in your Romance Sector, and even if you aren't looking for a relationship, the opportunities will be there. Conditions may not have been the best in the recent past for you, but all of that is over for now. Time to cut loose! June, July and August is prime time to strike. If you're looking for a relationship (or want to solidify an existing one), make the effort during those three months and you'll be rewarded.

When it comes to actual total love in your life, 2010 will be better than what you've seen the last few years. You've probably learned a lot about how you fit into other people's lives, and you'll be able to judge your relationships more wisely as a result. If you're in a committed relationship now, April and May will prove to be excellent. If you aren't in one at that time, it may just be the time to kick an existing relationship up a notch, or find a new romance.

One thing to watch out for this year is irrational attachments: flings, in other words. You'll have more than the usual urge to splurge with your affections like someone spending their lottery win. If you're looking to avoid that sort of thing in your life, you'd better stay out from under the mistletoe in November and December."
[taken from Yahoo Astrology: Scorpio]

...completely amazed and baffled by its somewhat accuracy. and maybe the fact that it could be actually true or i'm just over thinking A LOT.

i tend to think a lot. good? bad?

close your eyes.

and breathe.
that's what i keep having to tell myself.

mahal na mahal.

What is love? Love is when one person knows all of your secrets...your deepest, darkest, most dreadful secrets of which no one else in the world knows... and yet in the end, that one person does not think any less of you; even if the rest of the world does...
When I say "I love you," It's not because I want you or because of the mere fact that I'm already with you. It has nothing to do with me. I love what you are, who you are, what you do, and how you try. I've seen your kindness, strength, will-power, and caring self. I've seen the best and the worst of you. And I am beginning to understand with perfect clarity who you are and who you want to be...a somebody in this crazy mixed up world.

Believe in the good. Believe that although there is good, there will be bad. Believe in hope. Believe in others. Believe in life...but first of all believe in yourself.

"Tell me and I'll forget; show me and I may remember; involve me and I'll understand."

spring semester 2010

...hectic start. but a good one.
I like my classes so far.
it's exciting.

i dream...

of a better place.
not like this one.
more peace.
no anger. just hope.
let the conscience run free.
away from all the formalities society blinds us with.
to be happy without worry.
to live without fear.

my mind...

is overwhelmed and occupied.

with so many thoughts, worries, etc.

emotions are annoying sometimes, hard to control.

untamable.

tomorrow is a new day (looking at the time, it's already today)

glad to return to work, and be able to focus.

school in 2 days.

excited and scared at the same time.

i need to grab hold of myself.

figure out my wants & needs.

express.

use whatever motivation i have to finish as soon as possible.

faith in self, is what i lack. i think i've mentioned that before.

set priorities straight.

allow relaxation and lessen stress.

build character, strengthen friendship.

i want to go shopping at Goodwill/thrift stores.

work on becoming a better me.

at the top of my lungs

i just want to scream.

whomp whomp wednesday...

how lame was that =P. extremely i think...

let me take a second to talk about Jimmy Choo and the collaboration they're planning to do with UGGs. what do i think?... quite DISGUSTING really!! I've never been a fan of UGGs despite their comfort and softness. I mean i guess it's okay if it were used as an in home house slipper but as a piece to complete an outfit, NO THANK YOU! Come on Jimmy Choo, you're classy, sophisticated, and hip! your prices are insane but that's because you've got quality. What are you going to do? make a pair of $1000+ worth UGGs. please don't.

(no offense to those who do wear UGGs, this is my opinion and it may or may not be right, but that is up to your own judgement =) thank you!)

dear heart...

back in 2008 going into 2009 I told you... "You have been through it all. The pain, happiness, sorrow, etc. but I guess I don't regret it one bit. It was those times that really helped me realize a lot, better late than never right? and so here you are now so weak yet so strong but still willing to love again eventually. Sometimes the memories are worth the pain"

And well, nothing really has changed from that. except the fact that you're well taken care of now. I remember writing that post, after being hurt once again, and feeling as if you had no one by your side to help and guide you through it all. When maybe that's not what you needed. While what you needed most was the strength of self, belief, and the desire to want happiness. Things are surely not going to be perfect nor will it be easy. So believe it now that you're going to need to work at it in order to get the satisfaction of both, the heart you give and the heart you receive. There's no such thing as being careless and spontaneous with you because it's within those moments that help me find the one who is able to find you and be able to give you all that you need. It was never once a search but more of a unexpected fall for someone that was already great. Let go of your insecurities and your fear because when you let your guard down, you experience so much more, and if (God forbid) you get hurt again you've been through it before so you can surely survive it again. but, things seem to be different now and this time around i think we'll be okay. happy and whole, ready to love completely with someone who genuinely feels the same. take care of yourself, i'll be right here with you through it all.

Love, Kayla Sapida

mere amusement

Today's just one of those days when I get to sit/lay around and just be bored out of my mind, so my sister and I were on our laptops in the dining room and decided to find our astrology compatibility with our current boyfriends...

Scorpio & Gemini Romantic Compatibility

When Gemini and Scorpio come together in a love affair, they'll need to learn to understand and accept one another's differences -- and if they can, they will be a nearly unbreakable couple. Where Gemini is adaptable, intellectual, outgoing and chatty, Scorpio tends to be secretive, focused, intense and determined. Gemini tends to take things lightly, including their lover; Scorpio, on the other hand, has a very deep need for emotional connection and intimacy. Scorpio is generally very loyal to their lover and very connected to the relationship.

This relationship tends to be highly passionate and can often be characterized by arguments; Gemini loves a good debate, considering it the epitome of mental stimulation, and that characteristic Gemini flirtatiousness tends to grate on Scorpio's jealous, possessive nerves. Despite these differences, however, this is no dull relationship. Both Signs love to take chances and spice it up! They have lots of adventures together, but if things get too tense and arguments start to turn negative, they must make the effort to reconcile if they value the relationship and want it to last.

Gemini is ruled by the Planet Mercury (Communication) and Scorpio is dually ruled by the Planets Mars (Passion) and Pluto (Power). Scorpio is generally quite concerned with sexual and emotional intimacy; they need much reassurance that their lover values the relationship as much as they do. Thank goodness, then, for Gemini's excellent communicative abilities; the Twins should have no trouble communicating their dedication to the Scorpion -- if it's dedication they feel. Gemini can't and won't fake a commitment they don't feel, so intense Scorpio must learn to back off a bit. Gemini will certainly make a commitment to a love relationship, but only if they're free to do so on their own, not coerced into it.

Gemini is an Air Sign and Scorpio is a Water Sign. These two elements can be a great combination; after all, the best decisions are made when they incorporate the intellect (Air) and the emotions (Water) -- the mind and the heart. The trick, of course, is getting these two elements to work in tandem. Scorpio is a master strategist; if there's a decision to be made or a project at hand, they can help flighty Gemini focus on the best options. Gemini, in turn, teaches Scorpio to let go and move on when their efforts are thwarted. There is a downside to these two elements' union, however; Scorpio's emotional manipulations can prove to dampen Gemini's natural energy and enthusiasm. Also, airy Gemini can leave Scorpio's deep waters feeling choppy, rough and disturbed.

Gemini is a Mutable Sign and Scorpio is a Fixed Sign. Gemini tends to do things on a whim, just for the experience, contrary to Scorpio, who almost always has a plan (or an ulterior motive) in mind. Scorpio can use their focus and determination to help teach Gemini the value in finishing things before jumping headlong into the next experience. Once these two begin to understand that they can enjoy a satisfying relationship -- Gemini providing the reasoning and brain power and Scorpio bringing their healthy dollop of sex appeal, emotionalism and passion -- they can enjoy a truly mutually satisfying relationship.

...it's just so weird how it SEEMS to explain a lot.

flibbertigibbet

definition:
\FLIB-ur-tee-jib-it\ , noun;

1. A silly, flighty, or scatterbrained person, especially a pert young woman with such qualities.
[That was the Word of The Day on dictionary.com]
^sounds a lot like me doesn't it?

I'm in this state of not being able to clearly express how i'm feeling at this moment. Am i mad? sad? happy? content? indifferent? somewhat feeling apathetic really. I can't get enough of what I really want if I tried, i don't even know what it is that I really want. I've already came to the conclusion about a year ago that I have many insecurities and doubts. Which both become harmful in times of thought and wonder. Why do I feel this way? What makes me feel like this? How can I prevent it? Maybe it's just being a part of me and something that happens unintentionally or subconsciously?!? Tell me how is it that I have everything that I've ever wanted and STILL I yearn for more.

I need more faith. Faith in myself, faith in others. I've lost hope in a lot of people, things, etc. Being let down makes it hard to stay positives sometimes.

what an emo post right?...but to me, it says a lot.

If only..

Silver/Blue1 by kaylakayyy

...being fabulous would cost less, i'd shop for anything & everything.

This outfit is different but something that caught my eye. I added the dog..well because one day i'd love to be a proud owner of a Great Dane. but for now I am very satisfied with my brilliant siberian husky. The blue sequins dress is flattering with or without the gray scarf top. The choice of the rings were to add that dark and metal feel to the outfit along with the chain purse. These boots are quite adorable because it has its winter look to it, better look cute for being $950+ worth. I'm too lazy to blog right now...so until next time! TOODLES