...cheap thrill

...I experienced an exhilarating feeling today while diving into a pool, treading water, then continuing the swim to the other end...

I started the semester fearing all that because I could not swim (only underwater). Being able to overcome the fear made me feel really proud of myself for accomplishing one of my goals.

...next goal: dive off a 10m high platform :)

on some days...

...i wish i left for the navy 2 years ago...

...I remember the day I made the decision that I wanted to join the military. I was amazed and excited with the idea that I'd be helping someone and especially my country, along with all the wonderful benefits I'd receive for my future family. Beginning of January 2009, my heart was set to leave. To pursue a better life for myself knowing I'm doing this to make a better me...

Lately, I feel like I've lost myself, or as if my dream has been taken away from me. I feel like I don't have much to look forward to because I'm too busy trying to satisfy other people and not myself.

This is what I am used to: making others happy rather than myself.

...i just want to get away for a while.
anywhere but here...