hello kitty

I was online looking for a gift a few minutes ago, and I came across this Hello Kitty ring that's part of ZALES HK collection and I found it to be incredibly adorable and might I add that I think the ring is only available in my size or what I think is my size haha but then again this gift search isn't for me, so it'll have to wait. I just wanted to take some time to share how much I admired it :P haha.

Ok back to more important stuff.
Lately I feel as if I haven't done enough or as if I wasn't good enough with certain things. A lot of mixed emotions run through my mind. but I don't know how to grasp them individually. Or if I even want to make sense of it all. What I do know is that I am going to have to not worry about everyone/everything else around me and just do what I have to do for myself in order to get by. I do however have those certain people in my life that I can definitely turn to for times of need. I've come to learn and accept that throughout life you're going to lose a lot, but at the same time you gain a lot and when it comes down to it, you end up in a better place than you were once in. I know I've grown a lot since last year. My opinions, thoughts, and ideas have expanded much more and now life seems to make much more sense. I'm glad I can say that I was once in the dark and that I was able to pick myself up again.

I am happy with the new friends I have made (who by the way I appreciate so dearly) and for the supportive family I've always had but ceased to turn to. I've made my share of mistakes and regrets but damn...at this moment I don't really care much because despite all that I can say that I am really happy now. and from the looks of it I'm going to be this way for a while.

“But there is suffering in life..."

"...and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it's better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you're fighting for."

I've blown over the small unnecessary things but then when it all comes down to it, things just build up and soon enough are bound to explode. I hate being looked down upon or feeling less of myself. I'm upset, maybe a little angry at certain issues. but at this point there's nothing I can do or say to change things. and from the looks of things, I don't want to change or fix it. It is what it is.

words cannot express.

how much better life is. A lot has changed and I can say, bad things happen so that better things can come along and sweep you off your feet. I've been a terrible blogger over the span of a month or 2. That means details need to be discussed.

School: has been kicking my butt. It's getting tough as I am only getting lazy. I know the mentality needs to change soon before the semester ends so that I can figure out what it is I really want to end up doing. Balancing between the Fraternity and School, is hard for me because I haven't been managing my time very well. Focus more on school, Less on the other things.

Life: Surely has been better. The friends and the family issues have subsided and the true ones are revealed. I think it's about time that people deserve to be happy. Starting with those around me. I still need to figure out what it is that I need to do, in order to get things straight. A lot of things have seem to become more stable and for that, It is time for me to grow up and take charge of things in order for it to work out in the end. 

"As I cross my fingers, I pray to God and hope that this time things will be better."

+Camping w/APO: April 24, 25, 26: Service with the Boy Scouts of America was fun here and there. 

+Korean Bbq w/ my G6, G5 and my Lil. was amazing. I didn't think we could bond so quickly, but we really did.

+I'm planning to bake/cook more.

i'm sorry blogger

...if i have abandoned you. it was never my intention, I've just been having too much fun lately :)
Last night was our 1st annual Spring Charity Event for Alpha Phi Omega. The show was amazing and things turned out for the better. As for now, I can't wait for the day to get started. A day in LA with some great people. Adventure time! Can't wait.

=)

i'm all smiles. this was one of the best spring break ever, and i feel really stupid,because at the moment i'm pretty much smiling at my computer