Lately I've had a lot on my mind and i feel like I'm having trouble expressing how i feel. I feel troubled and lost in a sense that I'm losing the idea of who i am. Last night I had a dream, and for some reason I felt as if this dream was trying to tell me something. Was it trying to guide me towards a sense of direction. or was it giving me answers to questions I've been forming in my head, or could it just simply be meaningless?. change and time. change and time.

am i happy or am i trying too hard to be happy.
i need someone to talk to, but i don't at the same time.
this is surely an issue with myself...

mon Dieu!

O___o

Sometimes its good to stop searching, just for a moment, and appreciate all that is around you that you are already thankful for.

epiphany

i know what I want to do.
now it's just a matter of doing it -___-

Dear God,
Please give me the strength and perseverance.
and thank you for my loving family and wonderful boyfriend.
AMEN.

me-time

it's the beginning of the school year again. and i'm trying to be ahead of the game.
I gotta break this lazy habit i've been living by.
I need to work on becoming a better me, because lately i've been hating myself.
all i do is complain and never change... well because i hate change.
I have so many thoughts and questions in my head, but I don't think I'll be able to get them answered.
i just want to do something for me.
but i can't do it if i am where i stand right now.

stressful september awaits.

i find it hard...

to feel secure.
to feel wanted.
to feel needed.
to feel beautiful.
to feel special.
to feel different.

This world forms so many thoughts and emotions to the human mind. I cannot understand or explain how important emotions conflict with thought processes. I honestly feel like I'm drowning sometimes and I can't seem to explain why this is the way things are. I don't feel amazing, and as much as people think i should be happy with life, in the end... no one is ever completely happy including me. No matter how many people there are in my life who are willing to help, no one can ever understand why I feel the way I do. Everyone has their own struggles, what's important is how you deal with them.

I'm hoping for change...
wishing...
wondering...
hoping...
PRAYING.