it's weird...

...to want something so badly then after you get it i end up changing my mind. In this case if you were wondering it is about my Major. After having taken an Intro To Fashion course, I've came to the conclusion that it isn't something I want to do. I want a simple life, nothing hectic which would require my full time and effort. Having to travel and make a big name for myself while having to leave loved ones for long periods of time during the week. It's something that could affect my future in more ways than one. And from my understanding I'm not that good of a networking-type of person. I don't sit down to read magazines and remain in awe as new designers rise in the fashion industry. To be honest I barely even know of any designers besides the already prestigious name brands, lingering on the shelves of department stores/malls. It's surely not something I could see myself doing because my passion is no longer there. I can't sell at work so what would ever make me capable of selling later on in life.

So after much thought and consideration I've decided to switch my major, not for the sake of others but for the sake of myself. Wish me luck, because I am surely going to need it.

one year...

Friday: April 16, 2010:Lazy Friday =) woke up early to bring my mom's FJ Cruiser to the Toyota Buena Park dealership. Then bf came to pick me up and head back to his house as we wait for the vehicle to be finished with its maintenance. He was lovely enough to cook me breakfast...After breakfast Tidus Myles got messy in the baby pool/mud so it was time to give him a bath. Poor puppy looked so sad when he was getting wet and soapy...
after bathtime, we cleaned up a bit picked up my car from the dealership. Grabbed something to eat from Wendy's and that afternoon headed over to my house. Mom came home from work and was craving sushi, so Mom, Lawrence, and I headed to Carson Buffet to eat dinner =)


Saturday: April 17, 2010:
When I woke up in the morning my eye was super red and disgusting looking so glasses were my only option that day. I got ready around 7am. When I got into my car around 8am to head over to Lawrence's house, I tried starting my car but my battery wouldn't let me. Because Tidus had his vet appointment I had to borrow my mom's car again. At 9:15 was Tidus' appointment. It went well as he got his last set of shots, but poor puppy has a minor umbilical hernia. no worries though because it's fixable.
Later that day we went back to Carson to introduce Tidus to his new playmate Luna =) At first she was very mad that he was in her area but soon enough they learned to play with each other. They'll both have to learn that they are going to be best friends forever in the end.That evening we went back to Buena Park and had dinner and watched She's Out of My League online <-- funny movie. Sunday, April 18, 2010: Woke up at 6am to get ready for church at 7:30am :) so happy bf came too! after a whole hour long + more mass we went back to the house and I decided it'd be better to cook than go out for breakfast. On the Menu was: heart-shaped pancakes, over-easy eggs, turkey bacon, italian sausage, strawberries, and oranges. it was Delicious, but made me full the whole day until dinner time. As we went back to Lawrence's house we made a stop at Zion Market to buy his family some marinated Kbbq Meat for their bbq later. When we got back to the house I wanted to play Wii Sports and Wii Fit.. it was intense and fun. After I was tired we took a break and watched Space Jam, but I fell asleep halfway through the movie. By then it was time to get ready for dinner. Blue was our matching color of the evening, and we sure looked good. Lawrence took me to Gyu Kaku and what was even more great was that our friend Lisa was our server/waitress for the night. She treated us well with the extra special treatment. The bill was soo cheap compared to what it was supposed to be, so Lawrence happily tipped her $30 because she deserved it :)

I LOVE LAWRENCE MALLARI

He's an amazing boyfriend, friend, son, brother, and overall person. He does so much for others rather than himself. He always takes care of me even for the simplest things. I can't get over how lucky I am.
Happy One Year Anniversary

oh how...

the weather lately has been crazy.
hot, hot, cold, hot, cold, cold... whatever the pattern may be, make up your mind already mother nature! for i fear that a great natural disaster is on it's way :(
from a recent article:
"April is Earthquake awareness month.. Why April? Not because the collective stress of tax day somehow translates into geologic stress, but because San Francisco's 1906 quake, the most destructive in California's history, happened in April. Also, according to a story in today's Los Angeles Times, Southern California is experiencing a surge of earthquake activity."

whether it may be minor earthquakes it's still a major issue to worry about. looking at recent earthquakes in LA, definitely scares me. In this case the only thing we can do is be aware and probably start building up an earthquake emergency kit. I surely don't want to have to deal with worrying but I'd rather be safe than sorry.

On a lighter note, this coming April 18th is my 1 year anniversary with my boyfriend. I could honestly say, this has been the best year of my life.

upon my discovery

according to yahoo horoscope:
You're feeling a little more sensitive about your relationship than you have been before, so check in with your honey and see if you can get more clarity than you had yesterday.

maybe i do, maybe i don't.
whatever this feeling may be... i hope it goes away soon.
it's making me sad.

note to self:

You've got to learn not to care so much or worry yourself.
Its not good for you or as a matter of fact, not good for other people as well.
Believe that you can be genuinely happy without doubts.
Love who are, but tame your emotions.
Communicate freely, but watch your words and actions.
Cherish what you have.
and hope that from now on things will be better.
no more then, just now.

aaarggh...

words cannot express the way i feel.

therefore i'm going to sleep it off...

i'm not sure if i'm feeling sad, mad, happy, indifferent, [insert emotion here].

but i know for a fact i've felt like this before.

adieu. au revoir. adios.

goodbye.