ending one. starting a new.

2008...what can I say? you've treated me so harsh this year.
So many things happened, and so many things didn't happen. I think I've experienced so many emotions in one year than I had ever experienced in my whole life. A lot has happened and so many things have changed, it's hard to say that things will be okay, because sometimes I don't know if it will be in the end. So Here's the Breakdown:

Family: I love them unconditionally. No matter how irritating or annoying they may seem to get, at the end of the day I am unbelievably grateful for them. They've been there for me through everything and anything. Even if I don't want them to be there for me, they still end up being there. Thanks for pushing me to succeed, to want to be better, and to want to make you proud.

Friends: My friends have been there since day one in this chapter of my life. Whether we have seemed to drift apart, it is somewhat easy to say, we can still be best friends again in the end. Friendships aren't ever perfect. There will be the times when issues arise but you just gotta pull through and remember the good and the bad, because in the ends its what makes friendships stronger. My best friends are amazing in every way possible. It is the memories that I make with them that will last me a lifetime.

Fraternity: Alpha Phi Omega. Mu Class. Alpha Family. You have made me a better person in more ways than one. On top of all that you've given me the chance to add new additions of wonderful people into my life. People who I can't even imagine what I would do without them. I love the friendships I've made, the people I can learn to trust, and the stronger person I have become because of all this. To my Sexy Fatass Rockstars, you guys have grown to be a really big part of my life. Food alone cannot make me happy but with food and the company of you guys makes it a whole lot better :)

Luna Marie: You made me soo mad last night by peeing on my bed, and pooping in the room. I was only gone for a few minutes and i had to come back to that? oh babygirl. I am upset. but I still do love you. Even though I know you can't read this, just make sure to not do that again, and that even if you piss me off, I'll love you forever.

My Heart: You have been through it all. The pain, happiness, sorrow, etc. but I guess I don't regret it one bit. It was those times that really helped me realize a lot, better late than never right? and so here you are now so weak yet so strong but still willing to love again eventually. "Sometimes the memories are worth the pain"

As for now, I am not as happy as I would like to be. but things will change, if not now then later. just as long as "eventually" will eventually happen. For 2009, you better be a DAMN good year because from this past one, I think I deserve a break.

escapade

14-day trial on my camera.
Today I bought a case and everything for it. but as I was examining and cleaning it. I found there to be little specs of dust behind the glass of the screen. Its not that noticeable to anyone else. but it bugs the crap outta me. So I made the decision to return it and exchange for the same one or in black. If none are available then. getting back my money is the next best thing. Either way I win something. So I'm not too bummed about it.

I had a good day today. Being with my favorite boys is always fun. and getting to see Missy was a bonus too. Winter vacation is going well. Work is efficient. Family is hilarious. and Friends are the Best.

I don't ask for much. I don't need much. I just want simplicity and to be happy. Real Happiness isn't always easy to acquire but when reached it better be damn worth it.

Lights. Camera. Action.

Say hi to my new baby :)
(Thanks to Tony for giving me a good deal at Best Buy)
Now Its time to take some pictures today!

you change your mind, like a girl changes clothes.

...that's from Katy Perry's song Hot'n Cold. I like that line only because it makes me laugh :P
Yesterday I pretty much just drove to Huntington to get my Falken FK452 tires, drove home, went to target, then back home again. Even though I sat around, under blankets pretty much the whole day it doesn't seem like I wasted time. I guess after working so much in a week makes me just want to be lazy. I forgot how good naps were when you are exhausted. As for today I have an on-call shift at 2pm, and I'm pretty sure they are going to make me work. BOO :( sad face. Although tomorrow I'm off :) and Tuesday is a possibility to go snowboarding. My week sounds pretty intense but fun at the same time!

stubborn

I am unbelievably shocked at how bad things happen to people.
To sum it all up. I was driving down the freeway and my tire popped.
If it wasn't for my sister and her boyfriend I don't know what I would have done.
I mean I would have done it myself. but with it being 1-something in the morning it wasn't an option.
I hate being a burden on people. :( so to Tine and Kris thank you guys so much!

its too damn cold to do anything.

day after christmas

gotta get ready for another day of work. I'm glad I am off tomorrow.

Merry Christmas

It was quite relaxing I must say.
The current filipino drama I started watching is called My Only Hope. its pretty good.
Thing is I'm starting to hate watching all these because it makes me happy but sad at the same time. Why do I always do this to myself. It's Christmas, I should be happy. but I am happy overall with family and my close friends. its just the part of feeling as if I was let down is what hurts me. but once again I should be used to all this by now. its the only way I'll learn to cope on my own. I love my family. even though I get annoyed easily by them. I still love them nonetheless.

Merry Christmas Eve

I finished watching all 75 Episodes of My Girl. I love happy endings :) Working on Christmas Eve was hectic. 7th day of work in a row. now its time for some rest. I've opened all my presents, and I love them all. One more :P I'm excited.

I love this picture of my sisters and I, because makes me happy. I can't wait til New Years :)

winter cleaning

I'm taking the time to do some cleaning before Christmas.
I feel better than yesterday :)
My sister comes home tonight.
Work tomorrow.
I'm excited for the week.

I've been...

too busy to blog :(
i miss it.

SICK

8-hour shift yesterday
5-hour shift today.
SICK
and
TIRED.

im really...

not in the mood to work today.
but my 8-hr shift is calling my name :P
I'll survive it haha.

I'm just going to miss my friends this winter break. Work has seemed to take over my social life. Today I woke up early to take my mom somewhere. and she mentioned something about how she's going with my relatives to Knotts Berry Farm, and that I should call in sick. but I know it's the wrong thing to do. but it really made me feel like I wanted to spend time with my family. off to get ready for work. the freaking filipino drama I've been watching is just getting better and better. Now I'm on Episode 43 already :) can't wait to continue watching it.

...I'm slowly learning.

sometimes

you do more than what is expected for those you care about most.

Winter 2008

I'm glad to say finals are over :) but I'm dreading the work schedule.
I work almost everyday starting this week into next week.

I hope things get better.

Finals

...has gotten the best of me.
It has taken over everything these past two weeks.
My thoughts. My Ideas. My time.
but I am almost done :)

Two down. One more to go.

My Girl

This filipino soap opera make me happy. Gerald Anderson is really cute :P
I am on episode 6 of about 75. So I've got a long way to go. but so far so good.

One final down two more to go.
Wednesday: Women Studies.
Thursday: Sociology.

surprised yet confused at the same time...

pouring rain.

I loved rain!
I spent a good 10-11hrs straight working on my research paper. and I am just about done with it. I am pooped!

I sure hope it rains tomorrow :)
English Final 2:45pm
Research Paper Due.

eighty-seven

is how old my grandma turned today. She seemed happy being surrounded by her children and family.
work felt like a whole day went by when only an hour passed. Finals are this week and I am very unprepared.
Tomorrow however is doomsday. but hopefully productive. I will be working on my paper all day. so wish me luck.
Good luck to all those who are taking the last of their finals! kick butt :P

stawberry water.

my friends weren't lying when they said this stuff was good. so now go to your nearest Starbucks and order "Strawberry Water" if you're feeling like an ice tea try it like this "black tea, no classic, sub strawberry" that's delicious too!

<-though it looks nothing like the picture to the left, I personally thought this picture looked pretty cool :)

Today was fun. I felt a little accomplished than yesterday. I went to the CSULB library and found a few books that would help me with my research paper. I like the self check-out, it's pretty clever makes me want to borrow books more often haha.

Dinner at Thai bbq was fun. Everyone was starving, and we all left with enormous bellies filled with food. Then they all went to a high school friends' birthday party. While I decided to go home and rest. Winter break is almost here, I can't wait for snowboarding season!!
Sunday Funday:
church. study. research paper. work 5pm-10pm.

stupid cupid.

Work is giving me 28-hrs next week, on top of that it's during finals week? oh my.

Girls are retarded, I must admit, I am retarded in the heart in every way possible. However I respect the situation. with great admiration. keep in mind it's more than just a crush. I have the will to wait. and if things aren't happily ever after in the end. I can look back and remember, I'm a survivor :) in the mean time sit back, relax, and enjoy the company.

time to watch my lovey-dovey filipino movies, and some home cooked food.

tomorrow:
free for anything
but should be studying :P
work 5pm-10pm

haircut picture. before & after...what do you think?

nahnahnah

Work has overwhelmed me.
Dinner with joey is always fun.
Cold nights make me happy.

sometimes things happen, that you can't control. so can't point the blame.

Love Actually...

is all around.
I love that movie. Its one of those movies you can watch over again. well for me at least :)

by the way I got a drastic haircut today. Along the lines of Victoria Beckham and Rhianna. I don't have any pictures right now but I will be sure to post some up soon.
back to watching the movie.

P.S. This movie gives me butterflies in my stomach :P

oh my...

I couldn't help but blog about how sexy this car is. The Lexus IS-F Five Axis. The body kit is amazing. The exhausts' shape is different than most cars. The interior has sculpted front and rear seats. Black Matte paint job with bronze rims.
I am completely in love with this car.
One day, someday soon. I will own you :)

I love days off. I love spending time with AphiO bros. I love my line. and I love the cold weather.

Tomorrow is another day off :)
homework is a party pooper.

Random thoughts:
_One day if I were to get a motorcycle, I would love for my helmet to be shaped like the Blue Power Ranger's head. 1.because I love the color. 2. because its hardcore looking. but then again I am sure my mother would disown me if I were to drive a motorcycle.
_I received more signs today about the Navy. creeps me out just a little. but excites me at the same time.
_I love listening to music from back in the day. Reminds me of how good music used to be.
_The weather is starting to bring in the holiday feeling. Taking out the gloves, scarves, and beanies soon. Warm tea, fuzzy blankets and christmas shopping! I'm excited.
_"it's complicated" sure has been the number one phrase of the week.

work was...

interesting/creepy today. I finally got to work with one of my favorite co-workers, seeing that we both think management was trying to keep us apart haha. I think laughing during work makes it soo much better. a 6pm-11pm shift didn't seem half as bad as I thought it would have been.

You work hard for the things you want.
If the things you want take time.
You learn to be patient.

Shout Out:
Allan, I want to thank you for today. I really appreciated everything.

get back.

...up on your own two feet.

"you can't play the game if you don't know all the rules."
Wise words of a friend. In all situations this quote may pertain to it.
you can't really go about assuming things because you don't know the whole story
that is my problem.

Congratulations!

i LOVE my LIL!!












Overall it was a crazy night :) but I loved every moment of it. Congratulations to the most wonderful LIL ever!

<3>

ahem.

unfortunately I woke up late and missed school :\
so I decided to drop my grandma off in West Hollywood.
came home just now. and I am about to go to Cerritos mall to get my check.
then when I get home I will be getting ready for the festivities :)
tonight is going to be crazy.

unsettled...

...emotions.

Today I...
woke up late so missed my 8am class :\
dropped my grandma off.
home.
Vinita's: eyebrows threaded.
pick up lunch.
surprise drop-off.
school.
ate food.
napped.
class 3:30-4:45
work: get schedule.
mall w/ big and her friends.
Dinner: Bjs Restaurant.
home.

scandelous.

I just finished watching Gossip Girls and Privileged since I wasn't able to watch it on Monday night...

_Gossip Girls: Amazing episode. It had so many stories but in the end it all came together. I really like the relationship between Serena and Dan because although they had broken up they still show signs that they are still in love with each other. Vanessa annoys me as a character because she always acts so helpless and she doesn't seem to belong anywhere but yet finds her way of creeping into the upper east side.

_Privileged: The ending when Will surprises Megan with bringing her all the things she favored most when she was living in New York to compensate for the fact that he was afraid to be in a relationship with her. He explained himself as since he's never been able to be in a real relationship he wasn't used to thinking about other people but himself, so he decides that he wants to make an effort with her. But his apology was beyond cute. He flew in her favorite sandwiches from New York, roasted chestnuts, and a huge Christmas tree imitating the one from her past times. This episode was surely a heart-melt-er.

Ramblings:
So many thoughts are running through my head and I don't know what to think. I keep getting that same feeling I've felt once before. I'm slowly giving up. Tell me otherwise. Is it right for me to keep holding on if it feels like it's going nowhere? School has me on the tip of my toes. Winter is coming. Weather is beautiful. Work schedule is getting really hectic. Income is getting better. Credit is getting worse. Navy Reserves is still on my mind. Tomorrow is another damn day.

P.S. Luna marie (my dog) is dreaming in her sleep right now, and its kind of creeping me out. hahahahahaha

strange as it seems..

there's a run of crazy dreams :)
I just finished my sociology essay.
I had some caffeine.
and some thoughts in my head
caffeine + thoughts = can't sleep.

if it wasn't so cold, and if Carson wasn't so ghetto, I would go for a run :P
The weather is going to be perfect today! I feel like today is going to be a good day, I hope so.
what an exciting/busy/stressful week!

School: Class. Random. Class. Meeting.


I think these elephant earrings are adorable
that's it. now off to start a new day.
wish me luck :)

essays

...bring out the worst in me :( and yet I'm still going to try.
Sociology 4-5 pages
English 8-10 pages.

Outburst:
I am upset. I hate how my mom thinks my decision of wanting to go to the Navy Reserves is just me running away from something... in her words, a boy or because of school. She tells me "You're lazy, you never reach for something higher, you just settle for less". And this is when everything comes together, I am not doing this with the intention of wanting to please my parents, this is for ME. With whatever decision I choose, it'll be because I know what's best for myself. I could have signed up days ago, but instead I chose to wait to get the approval from my parents, family, and friends. Now I don't need all that, I just need to be sure with myself because in the end it is my future. I am not stupid. I am not crazy. I am DETERMINED.