Merry Christmas

It was quite relaxing I must say.
The current filipino drama I started watching is called My Only Hope. its pretty good.
Thing is I'm starting to hate watching all these because it makes me happy but sad at the same time. Why do I always do this to myself. It's Christmas, I should be happy. but I am happy overall with family and my close friends. its just the part of feeling as if I was let down is what hurts me. but once again I should be used to all this by now. its the only way I'll learn to cope on my own. I love my family. even though I get annoyed easily by them. I still love them nonetheless.