the only one in charge...

..is yourself. mind over matter.

Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.

It's by choice, not chance to have ended up with everything I have now. I am lucky enough to have people who care about me, love me, help me, provide for me, guide me, teach me, etc. To think there are those who are less fortunate than I, saddens me because there are times when I feel like "my life sucks" when really I should be thankful. I should appreciate how much I am blessed with a lot of things...lately I just seem to overlook all of it.

A few days ago, I visited my friend in the hospital. We have so much history together. Holding a friendship with someone for almost 10 years isn't easy...but with her, it has always been successful. My heart broke seeing her in that state, having to watch her suffer through the pain, I couldn't help but break down into tears. She's such a strong person, I believe she will make it through all this. and yet...I can't help but pray that she'll get better sooner.

weekend recap...
Friday 9/25:
_went shopping in the morning with the sister.
_Omicron Pledge Class
_dinner at The Melting Pot :)
Saturday 9/26:
_work@MetroPark 2pm-6pm. (bf got to dj same shift)
_dinner at Cafe Opa for some authentic Greek food.
Today/Sunday 9/27:
_Church: no electricity...so the whole mass was celebrated in candlelight.
_2nd street w/ my sister. shopped at buffalo exchange. and i got myself a Hello Kitty wallet.

ramblings...
_i get irritated easily for certain situations.
_i hate headaches.
_“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."
_i want to cook a feast :)
_and...i really want to figure out my life already.

5 <3..and counting

:) so my wonderful bf had taken me out to this gorgeous quaint Italian restaurant called "Raffaello's Ristorante" for what was our 5month celebration. It was so cute walking into that place, welcomed with the aromas of Little Italy. The kind waiter escorted us to our table, grabbed me a napkin and placed it onto my lap. That kind of startled me at first because restaurants nowadays don't do that. The service was so interactive and friendly. I had ordered the Ravioli D'Aragosta (Ravioli stuffed with Lobster served in cream sauce) while the bf ordered Penne al Pesto de Pollo (Penne pasta in a basil pesto sauce, served with grilled chicken). Before dinner was served a nice couple had asked us if it was our first time eating there because it was their first time as well. They had also warned us that a lot of appetizers come out before the actual meal. They were sooo right. A basket of fresh bread, fresh bruchetta, and salad, all came out before we even got to eat the entree. It was sooo delicious. Then finally the main meal arrived and the presentation was amazing. The pesto sauce was mixed just right, and the combination of the lobster ravioli and the cream sauce went so well together. Once the meal was over, they provided a free scoop of some kind of Neapolitan ice cream, which finished off the meal perfectly. It was definitely one of those great experiences that will bring me back to that place soon. After dinner we went with my sister and he boyfriend to a dessert place called MILK in Los Angeles. I believe it's definitely worth the 20min drive to satisfy my sweet tooth :P

To the bf:
It's the simple things that make me happy. I don't need any fancy gifts, or to go on ridiculously expensive outings, to make me feel the way I do. happy i love you day x5.

so long sweet summer...

SUMMER 2009...my goodness, I had an amazing time :)

The first week of school already zoomed by but the weather these past few days have been horrible. I already knew I wasn't a fan of hot weather...I just want it to be winter already. My teachers have been decent, and so I have no complaints so far, not yet at least haha. Although my FAFSA check hasn't been mailed to me yet, so I'm trying to be patient with that one, but i need that ASAP. because books need to be bought so I can get started on all my homework assigned. I wanna be on top of my game this semester.

on a heavier note...
going back to school was exciting. but I think my excitement only included new classes, and a few people. things changed. Its difficult for me to explain. without being so worked up about it.

ramblings...
_I hate it when you try to be nice to a person and they disregard your effort because they can't seem to get over it. stop being so immature, grow up, and accept the way life happens.
_FAFSA is getting on my nerves...I'm hoping it comes in by friday or saturday..or else ::shakes fist:: haha
_from the looks of it..it's going to be an interesting semester. I can already see it now. long nights at the library. working 4-5 days in a row...oh boy.
_i'm in love with the iPhone :) it's an amazing investment.
_my boyfriend is one of the best things that has ever happened to me in...my life. how do i know this? well one would be smart enough to keep a person in their life who makes them happy ever since the day they met, who supports and protects, provides friendship, offers companionship...
it's quite rare to find someone like this...that's why I'd never want to let him go.
_I want a fishtank :P
_cleaned my room. but it needs some re-cleaning again..bahh i need a day off to do that haha.