halloween 2009 :)

Lady Gaga for the win :) Happy Halloween everyone! more pictures to come!

hiya!

=P self-defense is so fun and empowering. i like the idea of punching the shit outta my teacher!

I've been on a emotional roller coaster this past week and well what can i say? happens once a month definitely. DAMN womanhood. haha. I realized are emotions like these because of the moment or is it bottled up feelings that soon find their way out of me. either way it's good to be able to communicate. (sorry to the boyfriend especially). I wanted to take the time to recognize and thank the people who've been so understanding with me. Who've put up with my shit and who've helped me figure things out...

My Sisters: During a recent interview I had been asked "what inspires you?" and the first thing that came to mind was "my sisters"...she then asked me why...and so I answered: Both of my sisters inspire me to work hard and to want to achieve whatever it may be that makes me happy. They are unbelievably GENIUS in more ways than one. and to be honest, I don't know what life would be like without them.

Jerus: Lately this guy, has been so inspiring. To be able to understand and give amazing advice, is well...pretty much amazing. Believing in me helps me want to do better.

Jarek: Friend and co-worker, work is always fun when he's around. I admire it when people confide in me, because it makes me feel like I did something in order to gain that certain trust. He also give awesome advice about life and a different outlook on hardships, etc.

Big (Natasha): although we have our busy lives, we always still share that bond of understanding. and that humor of cute boys. you always know how to cheer me up, without even knowing it.

Jessika: haha she just freakin' goes through what I go through, and I love it. because at the end of the day I won't feel like I'm alone with girly emotions.

Lawrence Anthony Castro Mallari: OMG you are the most wonderful person in my life outside of my family. WHY? because with you i'm at my best. wanting to make the best, do the best, feel the best, not only for you and me but for my future. Knowing that you're by my side through everything is what keeps me strong. I thank God everyday for bring you to me, because finally for once, genuine happiness is possible. "You made a broken heart whole again" i'll never forget that. :) (i would write more, but you already know i'm absolutely head over heels for you)

...I'm still in search for that internship. or that window to opportunities to open. Lately after that last opportunity I felt a little bummed. but i'm accepting the fact that sometimes timing isn't right and that there will be more.

I'm planning to focus more on building up the relationship at home and strengthening the already established relationship i am in. Life's been TOO good to me. and I am absolutely THANKFUL.

so close, yet so far

...I hate that feeling of being an inch away to something you've been searching for and having to miss it because of other priorities...I guess the search continues on...

Recently I had declared my Major in Fashion Merchandising, and a Minor in Hospitality Food Service and Hotel Management. Weird combination right? well I did think about it for a while now, along with my other thoughts and ideas about what I wanted to be. Trying to find the right thing for me was so difficult. Inspiration from seeing people be in love with what they do makes me want to feel that same passion. So it begins. MetroPark...I love my job. I know there are days where I may absolutely hate it, but for the majority of time spent with that company and with the many co-workers I've met, I realized that I should do what I am interested in most. That's when I was certain that this major/minor is the route I want to take. The same day I declared my major, a fashion merchandising opportunity already appeared to me. And just yesterday the interview had arrived and she was explaining how she believes I would qualify best for this position. An hour after the interview she calls to schedule an appointment and I leaped for the chance, also at that moment I asked a few questions I was concerned about and it didn't hit me until I got off the phone. they were asking for 20hrs/week to do the un-paid internship. 20 HOURS?? realistically, looking at my schedule i can only offer about 10-12hrs :( because my school schedule is pretty much their work hours...this is one opportunity, and I'm sure I'll find another one. It's just a matter of time, and how much I'm willing to do ALL of this.

...searching once again.

western by kaylakayyy featuring Marc Jacobs bags

side note: I really want these Steve Madden Cognac boots...

http://www.zappos.com/steve-madden-brio-cognac-leather