hiya!

=P self-defense is so fun and empowering. i like the idea of punching the shit outta my teacher!

I've been on a emotional roller coaster this past week and well what can i say? happens once a month definitely. DAMN womanhood. haha. I realized are emotions like these because of the moment or is it bottled up feelings that soon find their way out of me. either way it's good to be able to communicate. (sorry to the boyfriend especially). I wanted to take the time to recognize and thank the people who've been so understanding with me. Who've put up with my shit and who've helped me figure things out...

My Sisters: During a recent interview I had been asked "what inspires you?" and the first thing that came to mind was "my sisters"...she then asked me why...and so I answered: Both of my sisters inspire me to work hard and to want to achieve whatever it may be that makes me happy. They are unbelievably GENIUS in more ways than one. and to be honest, I don't know what life would be like without them.

Jerus: Lately this guy, has been so inspiring. To be able to understand and give amazing advice, is well...pretty much amazing. Believing in me helps me want to do better.

Jarek: Friend and co-worker, work is always fun when he's around. I admire it when people confide in me, because it makes me feel like I did something in order to gain that certain trust. He also give awesome advice about life and a different outlook on hardships, etc.

Big (Natasha): although we have our busy lives, we always still share that bond of understanding. and that humor of cute boys. you always know how to cheer me up, without even knowing it.

Jessika: haha she just freakin' goes through what I go through, and I love it. because at the end of the day I won't feel like I'm alone with girly emotions.

Lawrence Anthony Castro Mallari: OMG you are the most wonderful person in my life outside of my family. WHY? because with you i'm at my best. wanting to make the best, do the best, feel the best, not only for you and me but for my future. Knowing that you're by my side through everything is what keeps me strong. I thank God everyday for bring you to me, because finally for once, genuine happiness is possible. "You made a broken heart whole again" i'll never forget that. :) (i would write more, but you already know i'm absolutely head over heels for you)

...I'm still in search for that internship. or that window to opportunities to open. Lately after that last opportunity I felt a little bummed. but i'm accepting the fact that sometimes timing isn't right and that there will be more.

I'm planning to focus more on building up the relationship at home and strengthening the already established relationship i am in. Life's been TOO good to me. and I am absolutely THANKFUL.