nightmares.

scare me.
heart pounding.
nerve-wracking.
heavy breathing.
just waking up in pure sadness.
sometimes i hate being alone.

so as I...

lazily lounge on my bed, waiting for the day to pass, with my Pandora playlist on blast, I wonder what's in store for me in the future. I want to be good at something one day.
_I want a Professional Career with a degree in Child Development, while being able to express my passion for fashion on the side.
_This splash of realization and belief in myself needs to grow.
_As time passes, I begin to fade in the eyes of others. I lost friends of the past and it really sucks because sometimes I'm in need of an unbiased opinion other than my own.
_I find that I talk to myself a lot about how I feel.
_Sometimes words cannot describe my feelings.
EFF...

i want to be...

the girl who can do anything she sets her mind to do.
the girl someone needs.
the girl who's strong and responsible.
the girl someone loves.
the girl you can't live without.
the girl who others look up to.
the girl who works hard.
the girl who dresses cute.
the girl with the long beautiful hair.
the girl who goes on adventures.
the girl with good friends.
the girl who isn't afraid.
the girl with confidence and willpower.
the girl who is smart.
the girl who is wanted.
the girl who is accepted.
the girl who can cook.
the girl who loves herself.
the girl who loves others.
the girl that everyone admires.
the girl someone can count on.
the girl with the beautiful smile.
the girl who can sing.
the girl who doesn't worry.
the girl who is successful.
the girl someone wants to be with.
and so on....

where is she? how come i can't be her?

I can't breathe let alone think.
Sometimes I'm unhappy with who I am.