i get..

easily frustrated with myself.

I tend to feel not good enough or even that I don't deserve things in my life. Am I not working hard enough? let alone at all? I'm disappointed with my habits, the way I think, and the mere fact of just how I am as a person. I don't write these things to just complain and have you sympathize for me, but to possibly expel what it is inside that's bothering me because frankly I can't seem to figure it out myself out.

i've done a lot.

or what seems like a lot. but yet never enough.
what is it that I need to do?
not this feeling again...


I feel like I need to clear my head.
and maybe my heart while i'm at it.

as of late.

I've been doing some growing up. I'm trying to get over the little stuff and begin to focus on the bigger things in life. At this point in time I've already lost a lot but gained a lot at the same time. There are times when I feel alone and scared. I need to understand that it's not a bad thing to be, because that's when you grow the most.

"God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be."

Dear God: Remind me that I am beautiful, classy and strong, and that I have to love myself. Help me to live my life to the fullest. Please promote me and cause me to excel above my own expectations. Help me shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect me at all times, lift me up when I need you the most, and let me know that when I walk with you, I will always be safe. Strengthen me to overcome my most dreaded fears and doubts. That I may love with all my heart the people who I've encountered in this moment of my life.


I am so in love that it's sometimes scary. The only scary thing is the thought of losing him.
I love my family there's no doubt about that.
I am so excited to just LIVE.

if life ended now...

i will do anything to find you in the after life.

lately..

i've been feeling better :)
about a lot of things.
I tend to have my days.
but I'm beginning to take things one step at a time.
everything will be alright.
just as long as I allow them to be.