i find it hard...

to feel secure.
to feel wanted.
to feel needed.
to feel beautiful.
to feel special.
to feel different.

This world forms so many thoughts and emotions to the human mind. I cannot understand or explain how important emotions conflict with thought processes. I honestly feel like I'm drowning sometimes and I can't seem to explain why this is the way things are. I don't feel amazing, and as much as people think i should be happy with life, in the end... no one is ever completely happy including me. No matter how many people there are in my life who are willing to help, no one can ever understand why I feel the way I do. Everyone has their own struggles, what's important is how you deal with them.

I'm hoping for change...
wishing...
wondering...
hoping...
PRAYING.