dear heart...

back in 2008 going into 2009 I told you... "You have been through it all. The pain, happiness, sorrow, etc. but I guess I don't regret it one bit. It was those times that really helped me realize a lot, better late than never right? and so here you are now so weak yet so strong but still willing to love again eventually. Sometimes the memories are worth the pain"

And well, nothing really has changed from that. except the fact that you're well taken care of now. I remember writing that post, after being hurt once again, and feeling as if you had no one by your side to help and guide you through it all. When maybe that's not what you needed. While what you needed most was the strength of self, belief, and the desire to want happiness. Things are surely not going to be perfect nor will it be easy. So believe it now that you're going to need to work at it in order to get the satisfaction of both, the heart you give and the heart you receive. There's no such thing as being careless and spontaneous with you because it's within those moments that help me find the one who is able to find you and be able to give you all that you need. It was never once a search but more of a unexpected fall for someone that was already great. Let go of your insecurities and your fear because when you let your guard down, you experience so much more, and if (God forbid) you get hurt again you've been through it before so you can surely survive it again. but, things seem to be different now and this time around i think we'll be okay. happy and whole, ready to love completely with someone who genuinely feels the same. take care of yourself, i'll be right here with you through it all.

Love, Kayla Sapida