flibbertigibbet

definition:
\FLIB-ur-tee-jib-it\ , noun;

1. A silly, flighty, or scatterbrained person, especially a pert young woman with such qualities.
[That was the Word of The Day on dictionary.com]
^sounds a lot like me doesn't it?

I'm in this state of not being able to clearly express how i'm feeling at this moment. Am i mad? sad? happy? content? indifferent? somewhat feeling apathetic really. I can't get enough of what I really want if I tried, i don't even know what it is that I really want. I've already came to the conclusion about a year ago that I have many insecurities and doubts. Which both become harmful in times of thought and wonder. Why do I feel this way? What makes me feel like this? How can I prevent it? Maybe it's just being a part of me and something that happens unintentionally or subconsciously?!? Tell me how is it that I have everything that I've ever wanted and STILL I yearn for more.

I need more faith. Faith in myself, faith in others. I've lost hope in a lot of people, things, etc. Being let down makes it hard to stay positives sometimes.

what an emo post right?...but to me, it says a lot.