uneasiness

makes my stomach churn.
I have the sudden feeling of nervousness. I need the strength to believe that there is something greater than all this. That I'll become better than who i am now. I want to be great some day, but sometimes the drive or motivation is what I lack. I don't think I'll ever feel good enough, i don't think anyone ever will. Sometimes the little things just don't cut it anymore. Striving for greater is what seems to be an ongoing goal. I wish I could just be happy with myself, but this feeling comes and goes until something is accomplished again.

Life doesn't suck, I do.

I hate feeling insecure with everything.
even until today...