fallling down the drain

...quicker than I expected. Everything is just going not the way I thought it would. am I being paranoid? am I getting what I wanted in the beginning? I regret a lot of my thoughts and actions. Because apparently its coming true. I'm sad about a few things.

First loves scar you for life. Although they teach you to love, they teach you to hurt but from all that you gain strength in finding who you are, who you can be, and a step closer to finding the perfect companion. But how come from getting hurt so badly you lose the will to trust again let alone love someone completely again.

You end up having this high expectation and your suddenly weighed down by your dragging heart. It doesn't make any sense to me. Nothing every does.


today:
sociology midterm.
school.
study.
AphiO meeting.
home.