on-calls.

I hate 'em. why? Because your day ends up being ruined, by having to sit around all day with no plans ahead so that when the times comes you call into work asking if they need you. The worst part about it, is when it ends up that you don't have to work in the end 50/50 chance and so you wasted a majority of your time waiting . on the other hand. its not like I have plans in the first place haha so I shouldn't be complaining. things just happen out of the blue. by the way, the reason I brought this up was only because that's my situation today :)

Ramblings:
_Last night was a crazy trip.
_My sleep was amazing.
_I had really crazy dreams. and I hate it when you're having the best dream ever but then you wake up to it not being true.total let down.
_Work didn't need me today for my on-call. now let's hope they won't need me tomorrow? I guess I just gotta wait and see.
_Thai food with my sisters was good.

The past few days have been super rough for me. and I can't understand why I'm feeling this way. Its bringing down the start of the year and it has BARELY started, I'm hoping over the next few weeks, things will start to pick up. I want to be happy. To be able to feel carefree for the rest of my break. but I'm missing something. School starts in about 23 days. I'm excited and scared at the same time. I'm hoping for the best this year. No matter how shitty it's been. I KNOW its going to get better :)