its ok to be afraid

to want to be different. to want something unordinary. to become unordinary. to help our country. to help myself. to hope for the better. to think about myself. to think of it in the long run. for my future. to change. to allow change. to hurt. to cry. to want to do something about it. to believe. to achieve. to want this more than anything else.

I fear if I make this choice I will come back to nothing. But I'm wrong. In the end I WILL have everything hoped for and more.

I'm sorry if the decision seems irrational. but I CAN do this. I know I CAN.
I need the support. That's all I am asking for.

Sleep. Church. Contemplating time. Work 4-8pm.

I am thankful for my life.