2,050 miles

away from home...
I am such a cry baby.
That's what I pretty much did all day, cry my eyes out. I asked myself, "why the f!@k am I crying?" and my friend says to me,"You're crying because you know how hard it's going to be for you, and how you have to eventually let go." which is true. I don't want to have to leave my life behind. and I know I may be getting ahead of myself because I haven't actually gone about doing something about this. but It already feels as if I'm leaving in a few weeks. its not %100 but sure damn close to %75. Its a gigantic step outside of my glass box, but it's a leap of faith that I'll have to take in order to actually grow up.

I am afraid beyond belief. I'm probably going to be crying for the next few weeks.
I cry now when I haven't done anything but discuss it with family and friends, Imagine when I actually go through with it. :(