before and after

I've always had that urge to do something great. To be someone better than who I already am, but lately I can't seem to find what it is I need to do to get that sense of accomplishment.

Do I really want to join the Navy? Do I want to be away from the people I love and the things I love doing? If I leave, will things change? Will my friends and family still be here? Will Luna remember me?

Those are a few questions running through my head. I want to help others sooo badly, but so many other things are holding me back. What am I going to do?

I don't know how to feel anymore. Or I don't know if my feelings are the same as before...

...save me.